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Carrying Ghosts
I don’t really understand what’s happening, but it feels like my symptoms are coming back. My neck and shoulders are so tense it feels like I’m carrying the weight of everything I’ve ever survived. It’s the same tension I had before I was medicated, the kind that never really leaves. I am also so incredibly… Continue reading
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Dear Infj,
You give. You give everything. Your heart, your time, your energy, your attention – and yet, so often, it feels like the world doesn’t see you. You pour yourself into others, believing in connection, in goodness, in the possibility of shared understanding. But instead, you find yourself misunderstood, overlooked, and sometimes even used. Lauren Sapala… Continue reading
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Numb
I am drained. Everything swirls. It’s chaotic and relentless. Political upheaval rattles the news. My car, side swiped on the way home today. (But I am okay) Exhaustion settles deep. Grief. Trauma. I need rest. I will hibernate this weekend. Hide from the noise, from the storm, from everything. Continue reading
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Letting Go: The Hardest Donation I’ve Ever Made
Today I took an enormous carload (literally packed from floor to ceiling ) of clothes to charity. I know it probably sounds simple, but it was honestly one of the hardest things I’ve done in a really long time. Handing over those bags felt like letting go of pieces of myself. And now, I’ll be… Continue reading
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The Great Closet Purge
I decided to completely annihilate my wardrobe. Like, everything came out. Every hanger. Every bin. Every drawer. My living room is basically a fabric apocalypse right now. We’re talking over twenty years of clothes. Some of it belonged to my mom but most of it’s mine and they represent my moods, my body changes, and… Continue reading
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Sunday Night at Jazz Alley
Sunday night was such a phenomenal experience. I went to Dimitriou’s Jazz Alley in Seattle to see Big Bad Voodoo Daddy. They were electric. I’ve always been a big jazz fan but seeing them live was something else. The energy was contagious, the music was popping, and I couldn’t help but dance along in my… Continue reading
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The 4 INFJ Subtypes
What an interesting video. I can relate to The Oracle, The Empath, and The Perfectionist versions of the INFJ. Continue reading
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A Night of Opera and Old Glamour
Last night I attended a historic performance at Tacoma’s Pantages Theater; The first part of Wagner’s Der Ring des Nibelungen – Das Rheingold. It was a night filled with music, history, and emotion. But what made it truly special wasn’t just the performance. It was what I decided to wear. I pulled out my old… Continue reading
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October!
Disclaimer: I fell askeep before I had the opportunity to post this. It is a day late. I can’t believe it’s already October 1. It honestly feels like it was just January. The leaves are changing so quickly into the most beautiful, vibrant jewel tones. I love jewel tones! They’re so elegant and seeing them… Continue reading
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Coward
He shows up when it’s easy, And vanishes when it’s hard. Leaves words like empty cups, and thinks the silence won’t be heard. Continue reading
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Dust
They glitter loud in the daylight, their names echo in crowded rooms, their hands collect applause like coins. They live in the sun where eyes always follow, where the air is thick with wanting. And me? I drift like a speck unseen, quiet as ash, soft as twilight, no spotlight to pin me down. But… Continue reading
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A New Era
I have decided to end one sided relationships. I will no longer invest my energy in people who do not value our connection as much as I do. I refuse to be used to boost someone else’s ego. From now on, I will focus on building relationships that are genuine, authentic, and reciprocal. I desire… Continue reading
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Happy First Day of Fall
(Disclaimer: I meant to post this yesterday but I crashed and slept for 15 hours. So here I am, posting the following day instead. I feel so much better after the long sleep.) I left work early because I just couldn’t push through anymore. I haven’t slept well in two days and my body finally… Continue reading
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Words, Connection, and My Mom’s Legacy
I made my first vlog — something completely new for me. I actually love speaking in public, so that’s not an issue at all. It’s just that, like many INFJs, I often feel that my words come across more clearly and beautifully on paper than they do out loud. Still, I wanted to challenge myself to… Continue reading
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My First Time Making Spam Musubi
I finally did it!! I made Spam musubi for the very first time, and I even filmed the process! I’d been curious about this dish for a while, and I thought, why not try it and take you along with me? It was so much fun. Watch the full video of me making Spam musubi… Continue reading
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Saturday Evening with a Brush
Tonight’s paint and sip felt grounding. As I worked on the canvas, the colors came together in a way that surprised me. So vibrant, alive, and familiar. It reminds me of a rainy autumn night, the kind that makes you feel both reflective and present at the same time. There’s something about putting brush to… Continue reading
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INFJs and the Sexy Magic of Extroverted Sensing
As an INFJ, I’ve spent most of my life living in my head observing, analyzing, imagining, and predicting. My dominant function, introverted intuition (Ni), allows me to see patterns, sense meaning, and anticipate possibilities. But it can also keep us tucked away from the vividness of the present. That’s where extroverted sensing (Se) comes in.… Continue reading
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Evening Reflections – September 10, 2025
What are you doing this evening? This evening I am sitting quietly in my recliner with Chewy by my side. I feel absolutely drained. Today has been one of the most stressful and heartbreaking days I can remember in a long time. Work itself was already heavy, but what overshadowed everything was the conversations in… Continue reading
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