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OMG
I can’t believe I’m finally going to see Pat Metheny in April!!! My heart could honestly burst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Continue reading
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Power Out
My body has been hurting so bad. My back and neck are completely locked up and the pain has been nonstop for days. And I’ve had a horrible migraine since the end of last week. Sitting, standing, lying down – nothing feels right. I try to ignore it, I try to push through, but it’s… Continue reading
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The Comfort of Hard Times
It’s Saturday morning. I made breakfast and ate it in bed. Blanket wrapped around me, coffee in hand, quiet all around. I don’t even feel guilty. I need this. I’m about to draw another bath. The water will be hot enough to sink into my bones to loosen the aches that won’t go away. Outside… Continue reading
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Hibernate
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Carrying Ghosts
I don’t really understand what’s happening, but it feels like my symptoms are coming back. My neck and shoulders are so tense it feels like I’m carrying the weight of everything I’ve ever survived. It’s the same tension I had before I was medicated, the kind that never really leaves. I am also so incredibly… Continue reading
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Dear Infj,
You give. You give everything. Your heart, your time, your energy, your attention – and yet, so often, it feels like the world doesn’t see you. You pour yourself into others, believing in connection, in goodness, in the possibility of shared understanding. But instead, you find yourself misunderstood, overlooked, and sometimes even used. Lauren Sapala… Continue reading
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Numb
I am drained. Everything swirls. It’s chaotic and relentless. Political upheaval rattles the news. My car, side swiped on the way home today. (But I am okay) Exhaustion settles deep. Grief. Trauma. I need rest. I will hibernate this weekend. Hide from the noise, from the storm, from everything. Continue reading
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Letting Go: The Hardest Donation I’ve Ever Made
Today I took an enormous carload (literally packed from floor to ceiling ) of clothes to charity. I know it probably sounds simple, but it was honestly one of the hardest things I’ve done in a really long time. Handing over those bags felt like letting go of pieces of myself. And now, I’ll be… Continue reading
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The Great Closet Purge
I decided to completely annihilate my wardrobe. Like, everything came out. Every hanger. Every bin. Every drawer. My living room is basically a fabric apocalypse right now. We’re talking over twenty years of clothes. Some of it belonged to my mom but most of it’s mine and they represent my moods, my body changes, and… Continue reading
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Sunday Night at Jazz Alley
Sunday night was such a phenomenal experience. I went to Dimitriou’s Jazz Alley in Seattle to see Big Bad Voodoo Daddy. They were electric. I’ve always been a big jazz fan but seeing them live was something else. The energy was contagious, the music was popping, and I couldn’t help but dance along in my… Continue reading
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The 4 INFJ Subtypes
What an interesting video. I can relate to The Oracle, The Empath, and The Perfectionist versions of the INFJ. Continue reading
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I Can’t Get Enough of The Police
I absolutely love The Police! They’re one of my favorite bands in the world! Sting is pure genius and the way their music blends complexity with such irresistible fun blows me away every time. Their songs are intricate, catchy, a little ethereal, and fun to listen to. Honestly, I could get lost in their music… Continue reading
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The Reset
I had to take the day off today. My stomach has been upset, and I just couldn’t push through it like I usually do. While lying in bed, I realized I’ve fallen back into some old patterns. The kind where I eat out of convenience instead of intention. I’ve been grabbing what’s easy and not… Continue reading
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Hot Pretzels. Cool Saxophone.
Some days, I just want to disappear into something simple… you know… flour, water, salt, and sugar! Baking has always felt like therapy to me: the kind you don’t have to explain to anyone. This time it was pretzels. I didn’t plan anything special – just a slow, afternoon, a warm oven, and the sound… Continue reading
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A Night of Opera and Old Glamour
Last night I attended a historic performance at Tacoma’s Pantages Theater; The first part of Wagner’s Der Ring des Nibelungen – Das Rheingold. It was a night filled with music, history, and emotion. But what made it truly special wasn’t just the performance. It was what I decided to wear. I pulled out my old… Continue reading
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Freedom!
Sometimes you need to let loose and dance! Continue reading
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October!
Disclaimer: I fell askeep before I had the opportunity to post this. It is a day late. I can’t believe it’s already October 1. It honestly feels like it was just January. The leaves are changing so quickly into the most beautiful, vibrant jewel tones. I love jewel tones! They’re so elegant and seeing them… Continue reading
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A Stormy Fall Day and the Façade That’s Cracking
Today turned out to be a really stormy day. It feels like fall now, especially after a warm, sunny weekend. The wind was blowing , the rain was pouring, and the leaves were falling all over the ground. Honestly, it’s kind of beautiful if you actually stop and look. Normally, I’m not a huge fan… Continue reading
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